Remembering to Exist in the Moment

 


How is it so easy to forget to just exist? To be fully present in the moments we have and with the people we love?

Right now, my kids are with me all the time. And while I often seek solitude and a chance to reconnect with myself, I also know that in six to eight years, they’ll be off on their own. Then, solitude may not be something I seek—it may simply be what is. Apart from the family I continue to build, I may have solitude for the rest of my life. That thought sits with me.

But today, I’m here. And today, I feel gratitude.

I’m grateful for my partner—for who he is, for his selfless love, for the way he genuinely cares for me and the kids. I’m grateful for my children, for who they are as people. They care about each other. They care about their family. They care about their friends. They care about themselves. We’re all just figuring life out together.

I’m grateful for the community around us, for the growth we’re constantly experiencing, for the way we evolve. I can’t imagine what it’s like to live any other life, but I don’t have to. I just have to live this one.

And today, that feels like enough.

The sun is shining. The birds are chirping. A warm breeze moves through the air, whispering the promise of spring. I feel awake. I feel alive. And in this moment, I remember why I’m here.

Even if I don’t fully know why.

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